According to The Star article dated 27 Nov 2008.
While everyone trying to avoid the loans, I am take it up because serious I have been forced to take. I need a safe haven.
Friday, November 28
Thursday, November 27
Life sometimes is unfair...
Have you realized that life sometimes is so unfair. Why so unfair ?
I have been through hell for the past few weeks. After the encounter of so called "mother". To the utmost condition of favouritism. She shows it too obvious until barely a person called 'dimwit' can't see her true colours and intention. The intention word makes me think of the movie "cruel intentions". Yes yes. I know it is too not related but I am sure that everyone remembers it. Anyways, I feel that my life is not so color as I thought. Hardworking and doing things that you think it is real and true is wrong.
Today, I had a dream. I was in the rich daughter's birthday party. I was happily greeting people and socializing as usual. My mother and brothers are in the party. Then, all of the sudden, my mother start to shout and scream. Telling people that she ran into problem with the authority. Then she shouts my name and telling everyone that I am not good son. Blah blah blah. saying that I don't even help her to solve the problems. I went out and tell her off. I told her since I am the bad...the worst son you ever had. so to be it. I shall not help. I told her to find her favourite son and forgot about me. I say don't bother shout and declaring that I am the worst. I admit that I have become such person as today and future is totally depends on the love and attention of parents that moulds a person. I am not blame them that they focus on the bright child. But DON'T DO IT so obvious but when need help, always find the useless,bad, and the one you always complain,commented,curse and telling the whole wide world, "HOW BAD AND STUPID AM I ?"
Fine. I rested my tanturm and anger to rest. I have more things to care like loan. I can tell you loan are a thing that I never like getting. I never like loaning stuff. It is like a tick around body. But everyone is doing it except someone rich kids. Any way, stress lower already.. chill and tata
P.S: Do leave your comments
I have been through hell for the past few weeks. After the encounter of so called "mother". To the utmost condition of favouritism. She shows it too obvious until barely a person called 'dimwit' can't see her true colours and intention. The intention word makes me think of the movie "cruel intentions". Yes yes. I know it is too not related but I am sure that everyone remembers it. Anyways, I feel that my life is not so color as I thought. Hardworking and doing things that you think it is real and true is wrong.
Today, I had a dream. I was in the rich daughter's birthday party. I was happily greeting people and socializing as usual. My mother and brothers are in the party. Then, all of the sudden, my mother start to shout and scream. Telling people that she ran into problem with the authority. Then she shouts my name and telling everyone that I am not good son. Blah blah blah. saying that I don't even help her to solve the problems. I went out and tell her off. I told her since I am the bad...the worst son you ever had. so to be it. I shall not help. I told her to find her favourite son and forgot about me. I say don't bother shout and declaring that I am the worst. I admit that I have become such person as today and future is totally depends on the love and attention of parents that moulds a person. I am not blame them that they focus on the bright child. But DON'T DO IT so obvious but when need help, always find the useless,bad, and the one you always complain,commented,curse and telling the whole wide world, "HOW BAD AND STUPID AM I ?"
Fine. I rested my tanturm and anger to rest. I have more things to care like loan. I can tell you loan are a thing that I never like getting. I never like loaning stuff. It is like a tick around body. But everyone is doing it except someone rich kids. Any way, stress lower already.. chill and tata
P.S: Do leave your comments
Friday, November 21
Tag post
Got this from Quinee's Blog
Here it goes.
Rules :
- Pick your birth month .
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people
January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
April
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
November
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.
Guess what ??
I am tagged you all who reads my blog include you ( Canna )
Muhahaha
P.S: I was trying to put a emoticon of onion head and got problem. Sigh....
Here it goes.
Rules :
- Pick your birth month .
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people
January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
February
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
April
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
November
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
December
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.
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My Burst date is
June
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
Guess what ??
I am tagged you all who reads my blog include you ( Canna )
Muhahaha
P.S: I was trying to put a emoticon of onion head and got problem. Sigh....
Work Starts
Long time, no blog...
I am trying to shift my bio clock to night.
Need to be a vampire.
Still unable to do it.
Anyways, Loan and house hunting is over and comes the pay part..
Awww... Life is like that. Anyway, how you guys cope with life with loan, house and etc....
Love to hear it. Share with me..
I am a newbie.
I am trying to shift my bio clock to night.
Need to be a vampire.
Still unable to do it.
Anyways, Loan and house hunting is over and comes the pay part..
Awww... Life is like that. Anyway, how you guys cope with life with loan, house and etc....
Love to hear it. Share with me..
I am a newbie.
Monday, November 10
Weekend of House Hunting
Another weekend of house hunting. Yes, House hunting...
Yes, We managed to find one. At last, now, another issue which loan searching...yea yea
It is a starting of real life. Loan, Marriage, Family and etc etc etc.
Now house searching done, loan researching begin.. Hopefully GOD bless the process to be bliss for us. As I am having this unrest in my mind for quite sometimes.
GOD, please help me.. thanks. Amen.
More to post soon
Yes, We managed to find one. At last, now, another issue which loan searching...yea yea
It is a starting of real life. Loan, Marriage, Family and etc etc etc.
Now house searching done, loan researching begin.. Hopefully GOD bless the process to be bliss for us. As I am having this unrest in my mind for quite sometimes.
GOD, please help me.. thanks. Amen.
More to post soon
Friday, November 7
Assessment Day = Confusion Day
Hi guys (gals), I am really in confuse mode now.
Why ?? So many apps into my head. Everything is blur, can't find a link between them. Can't even mindmap.
Pray Pray Pray ...
Why ?? So many apps into my head. Everything is blur, can't find a link between them. Can't even mindmap.
Pray Pray Pray ...
Thursday, November 6
Monday, November 3
Craving
Suddenly, I have Craving for fine food,
Western, Chinese or any kind.
Any one knows any in Malaysia??
Restuarant name??
Food.. Food.. Food..
Western, Chinese or any kind.
Any one knows any in Malaysia??
Restuarant name??
Food.. Food.. Food..
Monday !!!!
Why monday with !!!! mark ???
Yes, of course, once again, the trainer is late and miss in action. Very bored.
A lot of free time, makes me feel restless.....
Boring....
Yes, of course, once again, the trainer is late and miss in action. Very bored.
A lot of free time, makes me feel restless.....
Boring....
Sunday, November 2
A little productive for this bored day
Well. Well,
At last, I managed to change my blog design thanks to Blogging Secret.
My weekend didn't end as bad as I thought.
I play some games, blog and etc.
Thought Canna is busy with her activities, I guess I am *well* off for a weekend alone. why with **??
Well, after the last post, Canna ask me, whether that I feel alone. he pestered me to tell her. I refused to tell her the answer because I am not sure. Why not sure ? Yes and No is the answer. At first, I feel really bored without her. After a day, I feel much better as I will be occupied with a lot of stuff. Although, my heart feel amiss without her. Nevertheless, she should have her own time regards with or without me. I realized she has other activity like her father needs her attentions, her grandfather want to meet her, her friends, her collegemate and etc. Blah Blah blah...
You seem to be piss out with all these things? Are you ?? I ask this question on behalf of Canna.
Yes and No. There are things that I choose to ignore. But I hope that it will be changed when I am married with you. Anyhow, Things are able to cope. So, Canna, your answer is here.
:)
Love... Everyone
At last, I managed to change my blog design thanks to Blogging Secret.
My weekend didn't end as bad as I thought.
I play some games, blog and etc.
Thought Canna is busy with her activities, I guess I am *well* off for a weekend alone. why with **??
Well, after the last post, Canna ask me, whether that I feel alone. he pestered me to tell her. I refused to tell her the answer because I am not sure. Why not sure ? Yes and No is the answer. At first, I feel really bored without her. After a day, I feel much better as I will be occupied with a lot of stuff. Although, my heart feel amiss without her. Nevertheless, she should have her own time regards with or without me. I realized she has other activity like her father needs her attentions, her grandfather want to meet her, her friends, her collegemate and etc. Blah Blah blah...
You seem to be piss out with all these things? Are you ?? I ask this question on behalf of Canna.
Yes and No. There are things that I choose to ignore. But I hope that it will be changed when I am married with you. Anyhow, Things are able to cope. So, Canna, your answer is here.
:)
Love... Everyone
Saturday, November 1
Lazy moody post
Please be warn that this post is highly boring, contains a lot of laziness, moody -ness.
Proceed with caution!!!!.
Yes, Today is a weekend day. My laziness drag myself to stay at a place which I called temp. place. As my home sweat home is no longer avail. I am taking a day off of searching house and Canna went back to Klang to visit her father. I am all alone. It makes me start to thinking.
Without Canna, am I alone? Do I feel alone? Honestly, I am not sure. I am not sure what I will be. I have a very complicated family background. I am highlight as the leech of the family. I feel akward. I don't like to stay any where near them. Because they think I am trying to brainwash father to give me his shares in the company.
My tension meter activity is quite high and actively increasing....
........ End. (Super bored)
Proceed with caution!!!!.
Yes, Today is a weekend day. My laziness drag myself to stay at a place which I called temp. place. As my home sweat home is no longer avail. I am taking a day off of searching house and Canna went back to Klang to visit her father. I am all alone. It makes me start to thinking.
Without Canna, am I alone? Do I feel alone? Honestly, I am not sure. I am not sure what I will be. I have a very complicated family background. I am highlight as the leech of the family. I feel akward. I don't like to stay any where near them. Because they think I am trying to brainwash father to give me his shares in the company.
My tension meter activity is quite high and actively increasing....
........ End. (Super bored)
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